What if it's God speaking?

I wonder how often God has tried to speak to me, but I did not hear what he was saying?

The song "God Speaking" has been on my heart the past couple of days. It sings of the idea that Jesus speaks to us through everything; not just words; and not just "feeling after the Holy Ghost". The songs asks "Have you ever watched a sunrise, and felt you could not breathe? What if it's Him? What if it's God speaking?"
http://www.hayleymasters.com/index2.php?v=v1 (bottom left, music player, track 6)

I had a moment a while back similar to this. I was outside, trying to calm down after an arguement I was having with someone. I stopped a few steps away from the door, closed my eyes, and simply whispered "Jesus, please." There was immediately a very gentle breeze sweep across me and anchor my emotions, putting a smile on my face. I just knew God had used that to answer my prayer, and now am reminded of God's love almost every time I feel a soft breeze blow past me.

I was, for whatever reason, awake for the sunrise this morning, which reminded me of this song yet again. The sunrise was a beautiful pink, fading into green and blue, with grayish purple clouds. It reminded me of how awesome our God truly is--to be able to do something so mighty with such little effort.
(My dad lovingly says that every thing happening in the sky is nothing but God having fun with a paint brush. [Dad is a painter himself.]) (:

That lovely sunrise and song started my pondering on the beginning question. How many times have I not heard what God was trying to tell me because I was listening in the wrong direction?

My Calling

In a previous blog, I had mentioned the possibility of my calling being speaking/teaching/preaching in church, but said that I was still unsure and praying about the whole thing. I had started being specific in those prayers, asking God to give me a very clear confirmation--one that would not leave any doubt whatsoever in my mind as to whether or not this is my calling.

This past Sunday, I spoke to our Sunday School Director, Brother Jerry Long about all of it, explaining that I have been confused and longing to have an answer. He very point blank gave me a confirmation for that calling, stating that he has known for years that I am supposed to be doing that, and was waiting for the right time to bring it up.

I am speaking in Sunday School this coming Sunday. It is only for 10 minutes or so, which I have already been doing, but it seems different this time. I have been previously adding to what the teachers were speaking about with personal experiences, examples, and various points God brought to my attention while listening to the lesson. This, however, is more responsibility. I am speaking on whatever God lays on my heart, which means that I alone have to feel after God's will for the direction of the class while preparing. (I am in no way bragging about this new responsibility, just more detailedly expressing my nervousness.)

I am totally scared, to be honest. But I know that God will use me if I submit myself and seek His face as I prepare. I am hoping that I can pray enough to where I dissappear and God totally takes over. (I figure that way, if I mess up, I can blame it on God wanting me to mess up... lol.)

Please pray that God's perfect will would be accomplished through me, and that Sarah Parker would not mess up what He wants to say. Thank you! :)

Camp Meeting 2009

I had a wonderful time this week at Camp Meeting! God did so much in those few services!
I think the thing that stuck out most to me was what Jesus did Friday night, when Brother Lee Stoneking preached. He spoke to us about a few things, but the thing that struck me the most was his thought on this scripture: "I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye." -Psalms 32:8. He made the statement "There will come a point, in you walk with God, when you don't have to wait to hear where Jesus is telling you to go, you will be able to see where He's looking, and go there." I thought this was the coolest way I've ever heard of to view this scripture, and this is now my prayer. I hope that I get so in tune with God and His perfect will, that I will be able to see where He's looking. I am not saying that hearing from God is bad, and neither was Brother Stoneking; hearing from Jesus is wonderful and necessary. He was speaking specifically of moving forward in your walk with God.. becoming so close to Him that what He's feeling and seeing, you can feel and see as well. That would be wonderful to be that close to Jesus!