As an underclassman in high school, I had my academic future all planned out. I was going to major in Business Administration, getting my MBA (Master's in Bus. Admin.) eventually, and be a "business woman". This plan suited me just fine until my 11th grade year. I had just completed a Psychology course, and was now considering entering the field of Psychology. I had even thought of combining the two and becoming an Industrial Psychologist.. those people who help businesses run smoothly by psycho-analyzing the workers and their environment, etc. It seemed again as though I had it all figured out. But, (Of course there's a "but" right? Decisions like this are never that easy.) I had also been visiting my mom's classroom every day, after I got out of school. She is a para in an autistic classroom at an elementary school, and I begun to help out in the afternoon with the kids. I really enjoyed working with them! So then, I thought about being a special education teacher. But the thought hit me, "Being there for a few minutes every day and being there all day every day are two totally different things", and might not suit me as well as regular education.
So, of course, present day, this very moment, I am completely confused about it all. I never thought I would say this, (the one who loves to have everything planned perfectly before hand) but I think that's ok. I don't think it's mandatory that I have everything figured out right now, because I have more time than just these next few months to figure it all out. I would rather take my time and discover what I have a passion for, than major in something I come to find to be wrong for me and be miserable the rest of college, or my life!
So, I have devised a plan. *evil laugh*
In school this year, I am taking some business courses, as well as a teaching course, and have pretty much eliminated Psychology as a career. (Although, any type of business management or teaching will have psychology involved, so there you go.) Hopefully, by the time I have completed these classes (and graduated!) I will know more specifically what my plans will be.
[[I realize, also, that I have to get the ok from God before I do any of this. I am aware of God's say-so and am not ignoring what he has to say. He has the final "yes" or "no" on anything I am interested in.]]
All of this was brought up because of something that happened in school today. In the teaching class I am in (STAR-Students Reaching and Teaching), I have to submit an application to be in the class, which includes 3 teacher reccomendations. Two of the three filled out the paperwork while I was standing in the room and were thrilled when they knew I was in the STAR program. "If you became a teacher, the world would be a better place." and "I think you would be an excellent teacher; I really do." were the responses I received. I was both flattered and shocked! I could not believe some of the teachers I admire most were giving me such confident remarks towards my decision!
A little background..
My thoughts on becoming a teacher began subtly in junior high school. It crossed my mind, but I dismissed it as a career that made too little money for my interest, and forgot about it. Later, the desire returned in high school, but I was still determined to not pursue it. Now, because of the fact that, over the years, I have had no doubts about teaching, except the salary, I believe it may be God's will. Jesus usually reveals His will slowly, but unchanging, which is what has happened here. But I am still not positive. I am positive that I'm not going to let something stupid like "not making enough money" have such a heavy impact on my decision. I really have no specific direction yet, so in honor of Brother Rick.. "More prayer, more fasting.."
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